What blooded fingers trace these idle patterns in my mind,
Forging memories of a most bleak, unusual kind.
I remember that which I have not, could not have seen,
A black and goat faced man who stumbled as he ran from me.
I wander, sleepless through the night to the empty south,
Warm puffs of misty air issue from my chattering mouth,
To the woods, the open darkness that lies inbetween,
An other place I now recalled from a distant dream.
There it seemed all perfect. Idyllic in it's way,
The creaking bark in strongest winds not heard in brightest day.
It touched upon a sinful thought that lingered in my head,
To leave my dying wife alone. Leave her to the dead.
It's right that I fell as I did, down in to a hole.
My face found dirt and water to mark my sullied soul.
I clambered from the ditch, roughly scraping at the mud
And on my hands and knees I lingered long before I stood.
A print pressed in the mire catches my drifting eye,
Making real my suspect fallacy, a truth from my mind's lie.
A hoof mark, large and heavy, goat-like and immersed
Deep in to the sludge that passed out here for the earth.
Could this be my quarry, the beast-man from my thoughts
I should not tarry here further, lest I should be caught.
My feet found stronger footing, I turned from where it faced
And witless, stumbled back in to the hole with wobbling grace.
My ankle broken, here I lay with all the ants,
Just as petty, just as tiny, just as meaningless.
Drowsy, laying in my ditch, I can dimly hear,
The thud of heavy hooves approaching, thumping at my fear.
The sound of evil in my bones, I'm consigned to my fate,
My body his to do with as he chooses with his hate.
I know him better from the walk. I recognise his art;
He is abandon. He is cruel. He is my own heart.
I smell his breath, I hear his mind nagging like an itch,
His horned visage peers at me. He covers me in pitch.
My wife will long outlive me now, feeling solemn, spurned
And I'll lie here in these woods forever, lonely, loveless, burned.
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